Sunday, April 28, 2013

Week 25


Week 25

Lasts and Reflections

I am all about recognizing the lasts. Even the smallest lasts like the last time I will take a shower in this shower, the last time I will make a bottle for Baby S, the last time I will put on my green flip flops and walk out the front door kind of lasts. So this blog post will cover many of my lasts and will also be a place of reflection and a breakdown of numbers from this trip. More than likely it will be the last post I make in South Africa as well. My flight leaves at 6:55pm on April 29th and I will arrive home at 10:30am in Chicago on April 30 after a short 3-hour layover in Germany.

The Glen- One Last Time

On Monday Cassie and I both had off. We decided to walk to The Glen one more time and got a ride back with Brady. We had lunch at a small café in the bookstore and then got our last groceries and checked out a few stores for the last time. We also had to stop at Mugg and Bean and get one more Caribbean Mocha together. The manager stopped by to say hi and that he had missed us. It has been almost a month and a half since I had been there! We also were able to say goodbye to him and the rest of the wait staff. It has been great to have The Glen so close by that we only need a ride back with groceries and can walk there. We continue to praise the Lord that we have been safe every time we have walked there and the few times that we have walked back. We are reminded often on dangerous the greater Joburg area is and with this knowledge, being aware of our surroundings and offering up prayers as we walk, we have been kept safe!

Toddler A gets her Forever Family

This Monday Toddler A left us for her forever family. She was one of the first babies in big babies to capture my heart. She is small in size but huge in personality and lets everyone know that she is boss. She would climb on the other kids and just yell when she wanted a toy from someone. She was a stinker but so darn cute! Her determination reminded me so much of Andrea and I always believed that they would have been great buddies if they ever met. She will be missed around here but we are so glad that she is with her forever family now getting all the love and attention that she deserves.

Big Baby Z becomes Toddler Z

One of the big babies moved to toddlers this past Monday after Toddler A was adopted. We had an extra bed and she is one year old so downstairs she went. She is not enjoying herself down there at all. She cries for a good part of the day. She didn’t realize how good she had it in big babies!

Tiny Baby L

One of our new little babies is very sick. He has been taken to another home to be better cared for and will come back to Door of Hope when he gets better. We continue to keep him in our prayers. We know that God is able to heal him and pray that his will continues to be done in little L’s life.

Mimmos

This past Wednesday we went to Mimmos with Jason and Lisa. Katy, Cassie and I joined Jason and Lisa and Nicole and two of her friends also came. Nicole used to work for Door of Hope and now she is at another baby house as the manager. It was great to see everyone again. I have loved meeting these people and I will really miss them! I am also going to miss going and getting Panzookie with them at Mimmos!

Last Shift

I had my last shift on Sunday in small babies. It was a good day and it was hard to believe that it was my last time working with the babies. After finishing in small babies I went to spend some time the toddlers. I just love those kids and have to get my last snuggles in with them.


The Numbers

6 months…175 days…252,000 minutes…15,120,000 seconds… how long I was gone
100 days of working for 12 hours
1,200 diapers changed
2,400 bottles made
3,000 meals of baby cereal or baby food served
44 babies that forever changed my life
10 girls from all over the world that shared this experience with me
15 aunties that have loved and supported us
7 individuals that for this season all South Africa their home and journeyed with us
7 adoptions
5 moved to other homes
1 reunited with family
1 death

The Change

It was expected that this trip would change me. I believe that it has but I can’t see and understand all the change that has happened so far. Some of it might not show up in my life until many years down the road. There has been one thing that I have noticed already though. Before I left I had a big passion and heart for the orphans of the world. Much of this I believe came from my upbringing and circumstances at home. I have two brothers because of the orphan. I love them more than words can say and am so proud of the young men that they are becoming. It is no secret that my mom loves and the orphans of the world. I have new passion for them though because of this trip. There are over 163 million orphans in the world today. 44 of them have faces and names and stories now. 44 of them hold a piece of my heart. 44 of them have forever changed my life and may never know it. 44 of them will be lifted up in prayer daily. I am changed because this number holds so much more meaning to me now.

What I have Learned

-       6 months is a really long time no matter what anyone says
-       skype is one of the single best inventions of the last century
-       babies will not break
-       internet sticks are worth every penny
-       I will learn how to drive a stick shift when I get home
-       I have the BEST family and friends ever
-       Life happens in Africa, I was invited to a wedding and attended a funeral while here
-       I am not done traveling, just done traveling alone for a long period of time
-       God will ALWAYS be there no matter what
-       I can’t wait to continue to process this trip and the impact that it had on me and what I have learned along the way.

I love you and will miss you more than you will ever know kiddos! Thank you for allowing me into your lives and loving me in every way that you know how. There are not words to say how much you have impacted me. Know that you are prayed for daily. I love you K, L, S, H, J, N, X, L, T, S, L, S, C, Z, T, T, A, P, A, N, O, A, L, T, M, A, J, D, D, J, D, L, Z, B, M, A, L, L, M, M, L, L, and M!

I cannot thank you all enough at home for the prayers and support and encouragement through this experience. It would not have been possible without you. I would like to extend and invitation to all of you to come and see pictures of the kids (finally!) and hear more about my time here in South Africa on Saturday, May 11 from 5pm-6pm in the Rosendahl family backyard or house depending on the weather. Otherwise I will be carrying pictures of the kids when I get home if I happen to run into you somewhere!

Love from South Africa one last time!
Emily

Tuesday, April 23, 2013

Prayers for Baby L

Please keep one of our little babies in your prayers. Tiny baby L is not doing very well. He is one sick little boy. We know that God is the ultimate healer and pray that He works a miracle in little L's life.

Sunday, April 21, 2013

Week 24


Week 24

A Full Sunday

Cassie and I both had off this past Sunday for the last time. We went to Berea with Margie and the three hands on inters at the IMB. Berea is a more traditional African church. Church starts at 9am but we were 6 of about 20 people in the building when the service started. By the end of the service the building was full with about 100 or so people. The service starts out with lots of worship. One lesson we learned quickly the first time we went to Berea is that you don’t stand still when you worship. Worship usually lasts about 45 minutes. Then we have the greeting. First anyone who is at the church for the first time is asked to stand up and be acknowledged. Then we have our greeting time. No one stays in their seats; you all move around and greet everyone. You know it is time to return to your seats when the music for the next song starts. The next song is always ‘The Love of Jesus is So Wonderful’. The entire congregation gets into the song and does the motions. One of the younger guys in the church always gets up front and dances during this song. This is followed by announcements and at the end of announcements all the birthdays for the upcoming week are acknowledged. We do sing happy birthday. Then we have offering time. Whoever is leading the offering time gets up front and says offering time and the congregation responds blessing time. Then the leader says blessing time and we respond with offering time. During the offering a song is played and you go up front to put your offering in the basket. Don’t walk up front though; you must dance! The service ends with the scripture and message. There is so much that I have learned about true worship by going to Berea. This Sunday after church we went to Bruma Market. This is an outdoor market and I was able to get my last few gifts for people at home. It was a fun filled day!

Baby A’s Adoption

On Monday this week one of our big babies left for adoption. Baby A was the entertainment upstairs and we were sad to see him leave but so happy that he was going to meet his forever family. The hand off went very well we were told. We continue to pray for A and his new family. So blessed to have met this little guy!

Apple Pie Party

When I first got here there was a volunteer here from the Netherlands and she made a really good Dutch Apple Pie. We got lessons and the recipe from her before she left and wanted to try it out ourselves. Lisa came over to the flat and Cassie, Katy, Lisa and I tried our hand at the pie. It was a night full of laughs to say the least! Our pie looked nothing like the one we remembered. In fact our pie was not baked in a pie pan because we did not have one big enough. Instead we baked it in a 4-inch high casserole dish! It tasted pretty good but not really like pie. Despite our fail we did have a good time together.

Elephant Sanctuary

On Wednesday morning Margie took some of us to the Elephant Sanctuary about an hour and a half away. We spent an hour and a half up close with the elephants there. We groomed them, took them for a walk, got to feel different parts of them such as their ears, trunk, and tail, fed them and got a big kiss from them! We were also going to pay to ride them but unfortunately some of them were being temperamental and we were not able to do that for safety reasons. It was so neat to be so close to these big creatures. When we walked them we had to put our right hand out and they put their trunk right in your hand. It was a crazy slobbery feeling. I have to say that getting a kiss was my favorite part. They put their trunk right on your check and blow a little air out it at you. It is muddy and messy and tickles so much! Not many can say that they have been kissed by an elephant though.

Goodbye Party

When volunteers leave the management sets up a goodbye party usually during teatime at 10am or during lunch at 2pm. This week we had a goodbye party for Cassie, Margie and me. It is a time to celebrate what happened while we were here and we also get thanked with a small gift. Food is always involved as well. This week we had cheese curls, a party staple around here, lemon pie and milk tart. All was delicious and we were given our send off so to speak. Crazy to think that 6 months is almost up!

Welcome 3 New Small Babies

We got a few new babies this week. On Thursday afternoon Baby L was picked up from the hospital at just 2 days old. Jo, one of the new volunteers, had the honor of giving this little guy his name. He is a healthy baby and I am excited to get to know him a little better in my last few days of work in Small Babies. On Friday two more small babies were picked up. I have not heard names for both of them yet. I work up there again on Tuesday and I am excited to meet them then! So many babies are moving in!

Baby D’s Memorial

Friday at 10am we had a memorial service for Baby D who passed away on Sunday evening. We held it upstairs in the house and not in the memorial garden as it was raining outside. The service started with Pastor Cheryl opening with scripture and a word of prayer. Then Nadane read scripture and a poem. The poem was all about why children have to die and the conclusion was to make heaven a little more beautiful. We moved into singing two songs, Stronger and Amazing Grace Our Chains are Gone. Baby D’s verse was read, Psalm 139:14 and we closed in prayer. It was a 30-minute service. Baby D was a little peanut and capture the hearts of many who came to visit the Baby House. Many tears have been shed but we must continue to remember that she is home and in her Daddy’s arms. We have been incredibly blessed to have been part of her short life here on earth and we rejoice in the day that we will meet again in heaven. You will always be loved and missed Baby D.

Boma Restaurant

On Friday Margie took Cassie, Katy and I and some of the girls from her office to dinner at the Boma. The Boma is a buffet that has lots of different varieties of food and they are also known for having a few game meats as well. They did not have game meat for us that night. It is getting too expensive they told us. It was a pretty cheap buffet at only R115 or about $12ish. The food was all great and it was nice to have a night out as well. We also took this opportunity to say goodbye to Margie as she leaves this Monday. There will never be a way to thank her and express how much she has meant to us while we were here. She is just an incredible woman of the Lord and willing to help out anyone in need. She will be dearly missed!

Odds and Ends

-       This week Cassie and I have started to watch the full series of Anne of Green Gables. We are about half way through it and plan to finish it up this coming week. It has been a perfect ending to our nights this week.
-       Our sticky note calendar gets smaller by the day and Cassie and I get a little more anxious to be home with each piece of paper that we pull down!
-       I have realized that one of the things that I am really going to miss here is teatime. I have grown to LOVE teatime. South Africa loves teatime. It is so important here to take time out of your morning and enjoy a cup of tea. While I have not grown a liking to tea just yet, I do enjoy the break each morning that is more or less required of you. So if I happen to stop everything that I am doing for a few minutes around 10am at home you know I am just taking my tea!
-       Wednesday and Thursday next week I start packing and Friday, Saturday and Sunday mark my last days of work. Monday will be one more day to sleep in and say goodbye before heading to catch that air-o-plane at 6:55pm!


Well I have ONE week left in South Africa. I can’t believe that 6 months have passed in a way. At other times it feels like I have been gone for closer to 6 years. I am getting very anxious to come home and see everyone again. Wednesday and Thursday are my last days off so that is when my suitcases will come out and I will start packing. It won’t be long after that and I will be on the plane home. I am looking forward to making my last week of memories here and loving the babies with millions of hugs and kisses.

See you in a week!
Emily

Sunday, April 14, 2013

Baby D

Our Baby girl D went to be with Jesus tonight. We are rejoicing that she is with her Father and being held tonight. Please be praying for all of us at Door of Hope this week as we celebrate the short little life of this precious girl. Many tears have been shed and many more are to come. I love you Baby D. I am so blessed to have been able to hold you and cuddle you and kiss you while you were here on Earth. I can't wait to be reunited in heaven one day!

Week 23


Week 23

Days Off

The first three days of this week I had off. I still don’t do much on my days off. With Internet at the baby house now I will spend a little bit of time online. I also try and set up skype dates with people at home. I was able to skype with some great friends and family on those days and did some blog reading. I also spent time reading and just doing nothing while itunes played. When the toddlers were outside I went to visit with them for a little while because they are just too darn cute not to. Also Toddler K just yells my name when he sees me walk past the window and I can’t say no. I have also started to go through my pictures and put them in different folders to print off right when I get home. This has been really overwhelming to say the least! I have so many pictures and love so many of them. Needless to say when you see me I will have loads of pictures on me to show off of my kiddos. Lazy days off are the best!

Small Babies

This week I spent the week working in small babies. Right now small babies is a pretty easy schedule. Babies are either fed every three hours or every four hours. Right now all of the babies are on the four-hour schedule except for my baby M, he is a three-hour baby. This makes for a pretty easy day with most of it spent by the babies sleeping. There can be lots of down time but when they are up, everyone is up. It has been funny because when I have been skyping with friends I say how easy it is to take care of 10 newborn to 4 month olds. Wonder if this will ever come back to bite me in the butt one day! One of the small babies was born without an anus (an opening for his poo to come out of). He has had surgery to form an anus that exits near his stomach right now and to form an anus in the proper spot. Soon all of that will be joined together and he will be a normal baby with a normal bum! For right now all of his poo collects in a bag off of his stomach. This week one of the aunties taught me how to clean and change his bag. I am practically a nurse after this lesson! The day after my poo bag lesson I got my first chance to clean the bag. Baby L is a great baby and for that I am thankful, there are some not so pleasant parts of this whole procedure for him but he is a champ and just goes with it. I was successful and he was good to go for the morning! This week I also dressed the babies is some cute outfits for a little photo shot. I thought that this would help our day along and I wanted some nicer photos of these little ones. Needless to say they turned out adorable and many of them will be on my walls at home very soon!

Birthday Parties

This week we celebrated 4 of our big babies 1st birthdays! 4 of them turn one year old this month. One of them, baby A, is going to be adopted soon so we had to have the party at the beginning of the month so he could be part of it. It was a fun celebration of these four little lives. We sang happy birthday and ate some sweet treats. It is always so funny to watch the baby’s reactions when they try cake for the first time. Many of them pull a face but usually end up liking it at least a little bit. We also had the typical party foods of marshmallows and cheese curls and juice. I am really going to miss birthday parties here when I am at home. We can’t wait to see what God has in store for them in this next year.

Two New Volunteers

We got two new volunteers this week. Both of them have been here before. They came together both times. They will be staying for 6 weeks. They are from the England. It will be fun to get to know them the next two weeks.

Family Pictures

On Saturday Cassie and I both had off and decided to take some family pictures. Our family pictures include us and our favorite babies. Cassie and I both dressed up and put the kids in nicer clothes to take pictures. I had my favorite babies S, S and M in my pictures. Cassie had her favorites L, T, S, L and A. We were able to get some really nice pictures of each other and our babies. It was lots of fun and really crazy trying to get so many kids to look at the camera and smile. Most of my favorites are the candid shots that we got during the process. Love having the opportunity to get some nicer pictures with my favorites.

The Countdown!

 I am so excited to say that in two weeks I will be boarding an air-o-plane as the kids here would say! I have LOVED my time here but I am getting pumped to be at home again. I just miss too many people! I have to believe that I will return to Africa one day. Maybe back to South Africa and maybe a different country. (I would like to travel with someone this next time though!) I just don’t feel done with this beautiful continent. The most asked question of what will I be doing when I get home has still to be answered yet. I know that God has it worked out and things will fall into place. For at least the first two weeks I will be trying to readjust to the time change and a different schedule and living in a house without 30 babies. One of the other volunteers, Cassie, is leaving on May 2. It has been great to process going home together. We are roommates and this week we made a sticky note calendar for our countdown. Each night before we go to bed we take another sticky note off the cabinets. It is an exciting time of the day. We really look forward to going to bed because of this and I am ashamed to say that sometimes we find ourselves curled up in bed at 8:00pm. To our defense we always read in bed and never get in bed before 8 because that would just be crazy. Please continue to pray for the rest of my time here and for the transition back in just two short weeks!

Prayer Request
I have mentioned before that one of our babies is in the hospital to have surgery. He is still in the hospital and this will be going on 3 weeks I think. We pray that he gets better fast and is home soon. We miss his smiley face and precious giggle. I pray that he is back before I leave so that I am able to say goodbye to him and get a few more pictures of his sweet face. We miss you S and pray that you get better fast and come home. We love you so much baby!

A Few More Rambling Thoughts

This week as I was getting excited to start packing and get back on that airplane and it felt like time had stopped and I would never be doing either of those activities, I flashed back to my first week here. I spent that week in bed not feeling well (bad combination of jet lag and altitude sickness) and thinking that I was completely nuts that I was going to be here for 6 months. I looked through the 30 or so printed pictures that I brought of friends and family at home and cried. I read every page in the calendar of daily encouragement that so many of you helped to make and cried. I sustained myself on a diet of bread, apples and water and cried. And finally I turned to scripture because that was the only thing left to do. I read through Genesis and Exodus in about 3 days. I cursed the devil and mankind while reading Genesis for causing this world to fall and that I was sitting I a strange bed half way around the world from everyone and everything that I loved. It was during reading Exodus that I realized my life was not so bad. I was only going to be ‘wandering’ for 6 months and not 40 years. I could do this. And I have! This week as time stood still and all I wanted to do was get on that airplane I remembered those same Israelites and the same 40 years they wandered and I also remembered to when I got here. I had 3 weeks left! I had survived 5 months and these people survived 40 years. Surely I can make the next 3 weeks and be just fine. And guess what, we are now at 2 weeks! We are going to make it. This week I also started to reread the same book that I read when I first got here, Redeeming Love. It is an incredible story and one that I recommend. This will be my 3rd or 4th time reading the book. I learn something new each time and I am excited to see what I learn this time through and what I can take home with me from the story. So I am kinda reliving my first few weeks here and I hated those weeks! What a strange thing time can do to us.

Just two weeks now!
Emily

P.S. URGENT PRAYER REQUEST- Please be in prayer for one of our small babies. She has not been doing well this week and went downhill fast today (Sunday). Two of the volunteers ended up doing CPR on her while waiting for the ambulance to come. I was not upstairs for any of this but it has been scary to hear about it from them. We don’t know anything else right now. We love you baby D. Get better fast and come home. 

Monday, April 8, 2013

Week 22


Week 22

Toddler K

This little guy has found his way into my heart big time recently. I love this little guy. Toddler K is the oldest here at the baby home. He is three years old and the big brother to all the other kids. He can be trouble but most of the time he is just cute and looking for a little love and attention. Whenever the door to the flat is open he finds his way inside. This past week Monday I had the day off and K walked into the flat. The first thing he saw was my computer. He walked right over to it and started to wave and say hi. This boy has been on skype just a few times! After I explained that there was no one there right now we put on some Disney songs and had a dance party just the two of us. We ended our music session with a little sing along to God is so Good and this boy has the halleluiahs down! I always feel like a celebrity when K is around because he just loves to say my name over and over again when he sees me. Even if he does not see me I can hear him yelling my name from outside sometimes. The way that his faces lights up when you say hi back is priceless. He really is a special kid. We continue to pray that the right home opens up for this little guy. He is one I am going to miss a lot when I leave.

Small Babies

This month I am working in small babies some. I have really enjoyed the days I have had up there already. There is not much entertainment like with the toddlers but sometimes that change is nice. I have also loved getting to hang out with and hold my boy M so much! I am giving him all the love that I can in the next few weeks before I leave.

Baby M’s Verse

All of the babies when they come in have a verse that is picked to be their verse. It is posted above their bed with their name and picture. I love to read the verses each day as I wake the babies up and many of us use it as our prayer for the baby each day. My baby M just had his sign put up above his bed with his verse on it and I could not believe the verse that was picked for him…Ephesians 5:1-2! That was the theme verse at Geneva last year. I first began to apply to come to Door of Hope in March 2012. I never sent in my application then for several different reasons. I am so glad that I was home last year because I would never have met K and the Wallington family and I would not have worked at Geneva again either. I loved my summer at camp last year and sharing it with Andrea was just incredible. I was able to learn so much and be stretched out of my comfort zone. When I came to Door of Hope for this time it felt right. This verse has been one that has played in my head many times every day, especially the dearly loved children part of it. This has now become my prayer for M every day. When I wake him up I get to say dearly loved child, Jesus loves you so much. To spend the summer being reminded that I am a dearly loved child and to get to pray that over the baby that I was able to name is only God. He does have it all worked out because I am his dearly loved child and so are each one of you.

The Kiddos

I thought that I should share some stories or tidbits about these little hooligans that I get to spend all my time with here. J
-       Toddler T is terrified and hates Toddler A with a passion. Toddler A is small in size but loud and not afraid to wrestle for the toy that she wants. She just has to let out her yell one time and Toddler T is on the floor crying. He has been beat up a few times because Toddler A knows that he does not like her and takes advantage of it. It is really funny to watch.
-       Toddler S knows that she is my favorite and it is bad when I am down there right now. She has to be in my arms and on my lap all the time. I don’t mind but the other kids do. Just this week I was sitting at the table writing on their charts after lunch and she just came and put her head down on the cabinet/gate and just looked at me with her big puppy dog eyes and whined just a little bit. You can be sure that I finished those charts quick and scooped her up for some loving.
-       This past Thursday when I was in toddlers it was really cold outside. We had to spend the whole day inside because it was just wet and cold. We got out some books to read and at one point I think I had about 7 kids on my lap reading stories. SO much fun!
-       Since the weather has been colder the footie pajamas have come out. There is nothing better than ending the day with snuggles from kiddos in footie pajamas.
-       When we watch Barney movies the kids love to sing the I love you song at the end of the movie and give each other hugs. It is so sweet to watch. They really do become family to each other.
-       Big Baby N does not like to eat. She just cries and cries when it is cereal or baby food time. Her latest trick though is so clever. She pretends to sleep! You can be feeding her and she is crying and all of the sudden she will stop, throw her head back and close her eyes letting all the food drip from her mouth. She is a stinker that one.
-       A few of the big babies have started to take on the name literally. All of the kids get weighed each Monday and last week Baby boy N tipped the scales at a whopping 25+ pounds at 11 months old. He is a big baby!

This and That

-       Wednesday all three of us left had the day off. We planned a ride back from The Glen to do some grocery shopping and also decided that we would grab lunch there. Lisa ended up at the baby house and we got a ride to The Glen as well as lunch with her. It turned out great. We made it back just before the rain started to get heavy and the hail started to fall. I would also like to note for those of you who know my picky eating tendencies that I had a wrap that had caramelized onions in it and I ate them. Just another one of those times that things in Africa don’t seem to scare me as much!
-       There was an article in the newspaper here about baby M being found and coming to the baby house. My baby is already famous!
-       Mango anything is my favorite right now. I cannot seem to get enough mango.
-       Pray for Toddler S as he is in the hospital right now. We miss his smiling face around here and want him to get back to us as quickly as possible.

I came across this quote the other day when I was getting up to date with some of my blog reading.
I know God will not give me anything I can't handle. I just wish that He didn't trust me so much. - Mother Teresa
I just love this. Seems to just fit some many areas of my life right now. One of the questions that everyone wants to know is what will you be doing when you get back. I still do not know the answer to this. My plan is to apply for teaching position again for this coming school year and hopefully find a nanny position or something fun like that for the summer. I have to remind myself daily that it is all in God’s hands, that I am his dearly loved child.

Well we are down to just three weeks now. Ready to come home but I will be enjoying the next few weeks of lasts here in South Africa.

Three Weeks,
Emily

Monday, April 1, 2013

Week 21


Week 21

Baby A, Baby T and Baby T turn 1 year old

Three of the babies turned 1 year old this past week. They all have birthdays within a week of each other. We had a party this past Wednesday for them and that was lots of fun. I was working in big babies and the party was downstairs in toddlers but we all took turns going down to the party. The kids love birthday parties as they get sweets like cupcakes, candy and chips as well as juice that is not watered down. This time the party took place over lunch and the sweets were lunch instead of just food. They really liked this. It is lots of fun to celebrate birthdays here and in April we have four birthdays to celebrate!

My Baby, Baby M

Volunteers that are at Door of Hope for 6 months or longer usually get the opportunity to name a baby. I have been waiting for my turn and this week Monday I was able to name our newest little guy. He is baby M and one of the most beautiful babies I have seen. I am not allowed to post his name on the blog for privacy reasons. I am so in love with this little one and visit him almost daily to give him some snuggles. He has quickly made the way into the top three on my favorites list. I can’t wait to love him more this month and see how big he grows! I will have many pictures of him to show off when I get home.

Toddler X and Baby M Leave

Two of our girls left us this past week to go to another children’s home. There was some legal stuff that was still happening with the parents and this place will be able to work better with that. It is a very nice home that they went to. We miss them greatly here and are getting use to the new dynamics with two of our babies gone. We continue to pray for their situations and rely on God for the plans that He has for their lives.

Pizza at the Farrs

Brady and Candy and their family had a friend come visit and stay with them this past week. Candy really wanted her to be able to meet us and some of the young adults from their church so she put together a pizza party and game night. It was a lot of fun to play games with 20 or so of us there. We also had some great homemade pizza thanks to Candy. A nice night out of the baby house and meeting some pretty fun people.

Gold Reef City

This past Thursday I was able to go with the Farrs to Gold Reef City. Gold Reef City is an amusement park here in Joburg less than 15 minutes form Door of Hope. I am not a huge fan of big rides so I was not sure about going but decided to take them up on the offer and at least I was out of the baby house. I ended up having a lot of fun and even surprised myself with some of the rides that I agreed to go on. We started off easy with some of the family friendly rides and then went on some of the roller coaster. The park has a fear factor rating that goes from 1 through 10. The first coaster we went on was the Runaway Train, which was rated a 7. It was not bad at all. We ended up riding it twice because there was not line and a smooth ride. Then nearby was the Anaconda, which is rated a 9. There are hills and upside loops and sideways loops and speed. I had watched it go a few times knowing that a few of them were going and was thinking about it. I ended up in the small group that decided to go. The ride ended up being fine. I never got super super nervous about it either. The rest of the day everything was very tame compared to that ride as well. The only other big ride that we went on was the Jozi Express, which is rated 7. We also watched one of the shows. It was a fun day and I surprised myself with what I was willing to try. For some reason things like this and zip lining which I would be terrified to do at home just are not as scary in Africa. Who would have ever guessed!?!

Easter Sunday

Another holiday to celebrate in Africa…Easter! I had a great day here in South Africa celebrating our risen Savior. I was able to go to church At Berea Baptist Mission Church since I had the day off. Then I went to Rosebank market and spent way too much money! Travis and Eric you better appreciate your African gifts because I spent way too much money on you! Andrea I need to get you a little more because of this problem! At the market we first got lunch in a food court area. I went to a Mexican vendor and got a burrito. An Easter burrito! Then we walked around the big market and starting our spending. By the end of our time I was basically out of money but I did get some good deals and got a few more gifts for people back at home. When I got back to the baby house we had an Easter egg hunt for the toddlers. This is something that the volunteers decided to do for them. We got 50 small chocolate eggs to hide all over the yard. The kids were getting their diapers changed when we went to hide everything. We then showed them what they were looking for and sent them out. We put a bucket in the middle of the yard for them to put the eggs in when they found them. The bigger ones caught on right away. The little ones it took more time. Once all the eggs were found, or so we think, we sat the kids down and they each got some of the chocolate eggs. They loved them and were a big mess. My Sunday clothes might never look the same again because of those little hands and lips all over them. It was so much fun to celebrate with them through the egg hunt and reading the Easter story. I have loved celebrating holidays over here but I am getting really anxious to be home and celebrate with family again!

New Schedule (Last one!)

I got my last schedule for the month of April. I will be working in Small Babies and Toddlers. Toddlers is my favorite department so I am glad about that and I have my Baby M in Small Babies that I am able to love on this way as well. I could not have made a better schedule for me! I now know how many days I have to work yet while I am here and how many days I have off.

Sunday
Monday
Tuesday
Wednesday
Thursday
Friday
Saturday
31           Off
1               Off
2  Small Babies
3                   Off
4         Toddlers
5   Small Babies
6   Small Babies
7   Small Babies
8              Off
9              Off
10             Off
11  Small Babies
12  Small Babies
13           Off
14           Off
15      Toddlers
16      Toddlers
17              Off
18   Small Babies
19           Off
20     Toddlers
21        Toddlers
22            Off
23   Small Babies
24            Off
25          Off
26   Toddlers
27  Small Babies
28  Small Babies
29 Plane leaves @ 6:55pm
30                HOME!!






Please pray for one of the volunteers, Candice, who had to leave unexpectedly for medical reasons. She has been sick for most of the three months that she has been here and is only getting worse. Her best option is to be home to get everything figured out and have family by her side as she does. We are all going to miss her so much and the rest of my stay will not be the same without her. We do know that she will be better off at home though. Pray that the doctors can get everything figured out and that she can find some relief along the way. We love you girl and are going to miss you something awful.

Less than a month!
Emily



Swaziland and Kruger National Park


Swaziland and Kruger National Park

Over the weekend we (me, Katy, Candice, Cassie and Margie) went to Swaziland and Kruger for a short vacation. The whole reason that we went was because my passport was going to expire before I left. I had to leave South Africa and re-enter to get re-stamped and be able to stay until April 29. We made a full weekend out of it and had a blast among many adventures!

Day 0- Friday, March 22

We spent the night at Margie’s house on Friday night. We were going to have to leave early in the morning on Saturday and she is a half hour away from us. That would have added an extra hour to her day of driving and this way we could all get a few extra minutes of sleep. We started the weekend off right with a trip to McDonalds for dinner. I think it might have been the best McDonalds that I have ever had. We then went to her house and went to bed right away, which turned into later than we wanted. We were all getting excited for what the next day was going to hold.

Day 1- Saturday, March 23

On Saturday we woke up around 2:30am to get ready for the day and left around 3:45am. It was about a four and a half hour drive to Swaziland. We made it to the boarder and went through the process of crossing. First you drive through a gate that means you are leaving South Africa. Then you have to stop, get out and go inside to get your passport stamped that you are leaving the country. You get back in the car and drive to the next stop and get your passport stamped to enter Swaziland. Then finally you get in the car and drive through the boarder and officially enter Swaziland. Once we got in Swaziland we went to glass factory that we about 5 minutes from the boarder. We had breakfast since it was around 9:30am. After breakfast we walked around some of the shops and through the store of the glass factory. They were not doing the glass blowing so we did not get to see that but we were able to get some really neat things made from recycled glass. We then headed off to a big African market. This market was very big. There were 126 different places to shop. It was set up football field size with all the shops around the boarder and room for parking in the center. It was lots of fun and I was able to get a few things. After the market we went to Pick n Pay to get some things for lunch. We just bought some snack things for lunch. Then we continued another two hours driving through Swaziland to the place that we were going to stay. Along the drive we learned more about Swaziland. Swaziland has the highest percentage of the population with HIV or AIDS. About 1 in every 2 people is infected. We also learned more about the king and his 33 wives. It was beautiful along the way as well. There were many mountains and places that you could just see for miles. Along this drive we also had some fun sharing love with others. We were on the road and driving behind a pickup truck that had 5 people sitting the bed of the truck. We waved and were laughing at each other for some time. Then Margie handed me her Pringles and a bottle of lemonade and told me that she was going to pull up along side of them and I had to gently toss the treats to them. We also found some donuts to give them and put everything together in a plastic bag. Margie pulled up along side of them and I tossed the bag over and it made it in the back of the truck. They loved it! It took all of .2 seconds before the bag was torn open and they were enjoying the treats. Something that you could never do in the States but was so much fun. We also pick up some corn along the way to share with people. It is common in South Africa and in Swaziland to find people grilling corn on the side of the road. The corn has the husk already off and is hot from the fire when you buy it. It is usually 5Rand (50cents) to get an ear. We tried some and really enjoyed it. It has a popcorn taste and is crunchy. We were able to pass these out to people we saw walking along the side of the road. And there are lots of people who just walk, as it is a very poor country. Everyone that we met has soooo happy to have that ear of corn. Each one of them we watched in the rearview mirror and every last one of them started to eat right after we pulled away. We all talked about how it was one of our favorite parts of the trip. The see the pure joy and true thankfulness was incredible. Along our drive we drove through a part of an animal reserve and saw some warthogs, giraffes, and different deer creatures. It was so neat to see. We also saw monkeys on the side of the road many different times throughout the day. We even had to stop for a cow crossing. One of the not so nice things about the drive was some of the roads. Many of the roads, main roads included had numerous speed bumps on them. Not very nice. The speed would also change all the time and it does the same thing in South Africa. It would start out around 60km/hr (36mph) and then go up to 80km/hr (48mph) then 100km/hr (60mph) and finally reach 120km/hr (72mph) only to go back to 100km/hr and then 80km/hr and 60km/hr and the cycle would just continue. We finally made it to our destination by the middle of the afternoon. We stayed at the Mananga Country Club. We had three rooms, two of them had two double beds and one had one double bed. Candice and I like to sleep with fans running and be really cold so we shared a room and Katy and Cassie shared a room while Margie took her own room. Some of the perks of our rooms, a TV, air conditioning, a double bed all to our selves, a huge bathroom and the list could go on. We loved where we were staying. The grounds were also beautiful. There are many animals that run wild such as zebras, different kinds of deer, monkeys and a giraffe. They had a golf course, swimming pool and restaurant all on site. The first thing that we did when we got there though was go to meet Hobs. Margie has told us many stories about Hobs and we were excited to meet him. Hobs is a zebra that is wild but allows you to pet him as long as you feed him. We picked up some carrots and got some great pictures of us feeding and petting Hobs the zebra. It was really neat. After spending some time with Hobs we moved into our rooms and went to the restaurant for dinner. We enjoyed dinner while Margie decided to go back to her room to get a head start on sleep since it had been a long day of driving and the next day was going to be the same. After eating we walked back less than half a mile to our rooms in the dark. Thankfully we did not run into any animals along the way! We went to bed early and dreamed about what was still to come the next day.

Day 2- Sunday, March 24

On Sunday we woke up around 5:30am to get ready to load the car and leave between 6:30 and 7am. We all agreed that it was one of the best nights sleep we had maybe ever had. While we were getting ready the power decided to go out and did not come back on before we left. This is common but it still proved to be an inconvenience. Once we were ready we went outside and fed some of the monkeys and went to visit Hobs one more time. Then we got in the car and headed for the boarder 5 minutes away. We made it through the boarder fine and found out that the date on my visa will allow me to stay even though the passport stamp does not match. They said that I will be fine and I am trusting them even though this is Africa. Continued prayers for the trip back would be much appreciated. Once we were across we headed toward the Crocodile Bridge entrance to Kruger National Park. We stopped by the sign to take some pictures which you might have seen on facebook and then headed in for our adventure. We spent the whole day driving around in the park. Margie told us that if you wanted to drive the entire park you would have to drive everyday from when the gates opened to when they closed for over two months. It is a big place! We saw lots of neat animals but did not spot all of the big 5 unfortunately. We did see the cape buffalo, rhino and elephant but did not see the lion or the leopard. We also saw giraffe, warthog, hippo, zebra, waterbuck, wildebeest, impala, spiders, turtles, lizards, and birds. It was a really fun day.  Some highlights were seeing the some giraffes try and scare an elephant. It did not work so well and the elephant ended up scaring the giraffes away from the watering hole. In order to use the bathroom you just find a spot without other cars and animals and quick do your business outside praying that a rhino does not come up behind you. We had come great and really funny conversations in the car and that helped to make the car ride not so bad. When it was close to closing time we headed out of Kruger and started making the 4 and a half hour drive back to the baby house. We stopped for some McDonalds for dinner and just kept on driving. When we were about 45 minutes from the baby house things got interesting. We were going 120 km/hr or 72 mph. It was 10:15pm. We were in a road work zone and could see flashing lights in the left lanes. Margie got over to the right lane and before we knew we were in water. Margie was able to keep the car under control and we did not hit anything and nothing hit us. When we finally came to a stop we saw that the situation was not good. The car would not start and the water was around a meter deep. All of the flashing lights turned out to be tow trucks. We sat in the car for about 15 minutes and no one came to help us or to see if we were all right. Margie decided to roll up her pant legs and go talk to them herself. When she went up to them they asked her what the problem was. Well our car happens to be sitting in a river on the highway if you didn’t notice! They said that they could tow us out and about 20 minutes away was Margie’s office where we could get a new vehicle. We got towed out and the driver came over to talk to us more. He told us that it was going to be very expensive and asked if there was anyone we could call to get a rope tow. Margie called a guy from her office and he came out with another guy to help us. We had to wait about a half hour for him to make it out to us. They were able to rope tow us back thankfully. We talked while we waited and just said over and over this is Africa. Only here would the tow trucks be waiting on the opposite side of the road for cars to get stuck so they could make money. They were not blocking the lane of danger but leading people to it so that they could experience a good night of business. We also decided in the car to stay the night at Margie’s and have her bring us back to work the nest morning. We saw Sunday night end sitting on the highway waiting for a tow…

Day 3- Monday, March 25

Once we finally made it to Margie’s house it was 2am. We had to get up around 5:30am to shower and get ready in order to be back at the baby house for work at 7am. Margie lives 30 minutes from the baby house. We stopped for McDonalds (again) and made it back just in time to work. We unloaded the car and I was getting ready to bring my suitcase to the flat when I heard my name being called from small babies. There was a little guy waiting to be named and I was going to be the one to name him! So despite the lack of sleep Monday morning turned out to be pretty neat. I will write more about my little guy in the next blog that I post.

Overall it was a great weekend and we had lots of fun. We cannot thank Margie enough for all that she has done for us and will continue to do for us. Her life if very busy right now as she is getting ready to come to the States for the summer and then she is being transferred to London. Please keep her in your prayers as she has been such a blessing to all of us at Door of Hope. She will be greatly missed around here.

Until next time,
Emily

Tuesday, March 26, 2013

Week 20


Week 20

Baby B gets Adopted

This Monday baby B left for adoption. She is one of the babies that came in through the bin while I was here. It is so neat to be able to see her come in and leave to be reunited with her forever family. She is a sweetie and will be a blessing to her family. We pray only the best for her and are so glad that we were able to hold and love her while she was at Door of Hope.

Baby A moves to Toddlers

Baby A moved to toddlers this week Monday. She was one of my favorites in big babies and it will be fun to watch her transition to the toddler room, this means that we are back to having 12 toddlers with all the beds full. Days down there will continue to be crazy and only get crazier now that the room is full again! When I first got here there were a few babies that stood out to me and really reminded me of people from home. Baby A was one of those babies as she reminded me of Andrea so much. Hopefully they will be able to meet over Skype now that she is downstairs. It is much easier to Skype with the toddlers because they go outside so often and that is really the only place that Skype works well for me.

Odds and Ends

-       The week before this one we had some cooler weather around the baby house. There were even a few days that we had to beak out the pants and socks. The babies wore long sleeve and long pants pajamas to bed to stay warm. Not the case this week. We have again had some days that are hotter than blazes. We really need to find the happy middle for these last few weeks.
-       I know that I have mentioned that the kid’s favorite snack is yogurt before. They have one more favorite snack that they don’t get to often and that is bananas. This past week we got a lot of bananas. So many in fact that each of the toddlers got their own and there were even a few left over for snack the next day. The kids loved this! Many of them even cried when they were done because they wanted more. It is so much fun to give them the treats they love so much and that also happen to be so good for them.
-       My favorite snack as of lately has been chips with guacamole. I just can’t seem to get enough of this stuff. My only regret is that it took me 24 years to try it!
-       My two days off this week included the same activity; sitting is the big chair in the living room doing absolutely nothing. This just goes to show that my life in South Africa is not always eventful and full of adventure.
-       Big Boy K calls me by name now! The other day he came up to the flat when the kids were outside looking for Auntie Emily. It was so sweet. Love this kid more everyday.
-       The kids have two favorite phrases that they say. One is ‘stop it’ and the other is ‘nonononono.’ They love to say them when they are getting in trouble and to say them to other kids. Both ways get them in trouble. If only they would pick up on the ‘I love you’ we are trying to teach them.
-       This past week I was working with Candice and it was towards the end of the day. We were watching our movie, Barney, and toddler K was not listening and telling Candice no. She asked him to come over to her. The kids are smart and know that they will probably get a slap on the hand if they disobey in this way. He walked over to her finally and she was talking to him and getting ready to get his hand and it was at that moment that the end song of Barney came on. K just started to yell to Candice, I love you, You love me and we both just lost it and K got away with misbehaving this time. Well played toddler K, well played!
-       I have two babies that are my absolute favorites downstairs and they both know it. Currently they are competing with each other for who gets my lap and my attention the most. We are learning to share and that there is room for two babies on my lap. Love these little ones sooo much!
-       We had a great weekend in Swaziland and Kruger National Park and I will post about our adventures soon!

See you all soon,
Emily

Monday, March 18, 2013

Week 19


Week 19

Big Boy J Leaves

The beginning of the week big boy J left us. He has moved to a special needs home and he will still have the possibility of being adopted. This was a hard day as J was Katy’s favorite baby here. It is so hard to say good-bye to these babies and when the baby is your favorite it is just too much. It is also hard to know that he is moving to a different home and not going to his forever home. We continue to trust in the plans that God has for J’s life and are so blessed by the time that we got to spend with him here at the baby house.

Baby T is a Toddler

Baby T from big babies moved downstairs this past week. He is handling the transition all right. Everything is different and at first he just wanted to go back upstairs. When he realized that we get to spend time outside later in the day his mind was made up that he is happy where he is. He loves to be outside. He will turn 1 at the end of the month and we are excited to continue watching him grow and change with the rest of the toddlers.

A Day Away

This week Wednesday all of us had off except for Katy. We were able to get her off as well (thanks Auntie Mary and Auntie Sylvie!) and we headed off for a day of fun. When we were at Monte Casino after the Rhino and Lion Park we really wanted to get back and spend more time there. Margie said that she would be able to pick us up some morning and drop us off for the day. We talked to Lisa as well and she was able to come to. Margie picked us up around 9:45am and first we headed to a jewelry store near the airport. It was too fun to make this detour as this store is located in a 5 star hotel. Margie has bought many different pieces of jewelry here and many of the Door of Hope girls want to make a stop after seeing what she has. I decided to get a necklace in the shape of Africa that is zebra print. The stripes are silver and black. The black in the stripes are giraffe hair. I really love it and it did not break the bank. After this stop we started the trek to Monte Casino and took another detour through Alexandra. Alexandra or Alex as it is known around here is a township that is near Joburg. Margie asked if we wanted to drive through a part of it and just she was the living conditions were like. It was very eye opening and something I really enjoyed. I did not take any pictures because I wanted to respect the people living here and because I wanted to see Alex in person and not just from behind the camera lens. It was funny though as we were leaving we saw a guy pull out his phone to take a picture of us. 7 white women driving through Alex must not happen very often! Finally we did end up making it to Monte Casino. The first thing on the agenda was to find lunch. After checking out a few places we settled on an Italian place. I ordered pizza and it was really good. Then we headed off to explore more. We found out pretty quickly that Monte Casino is more of a place to eat and then come for entertainment. There was not a lot of shopping or things like that to do. There is a casino that we passed by, a movie theatre, bowling ally, theatre and outdoor bird gardens. We walked through the few stores that were there. One of the stores was a candy store and it had lots of American candy. There were even a few different American foods. We got some candy that was a bit over priced but skipped the extremely overprices box of Lucky Charms. Really who is going to pay $14 for a box of cereal?!? I did end up finding a skirt in one of the stores that I bought and I just love. There were a few more that I would have bought also but they were a bit pricey. After our day Margie met us for dinner. We went to Gourmet Garage and it was delicious. I had the best cheeseburger that I have had in South Africa so far. The last stop of the night was to Super Spar. We needed a few groceries and this Super Spar is known to have a few American things every once in a while. It always depends what they have but we went to check it out. It ended up being a miss on some of the things that we were really missing but we were all excited to find pop-tarts. The next day when we had some during teatime we all agreed that they were some of the best tasting pop-tarts we had ever had despite not being our favorite flavors. Overall it was a great day. It was so much fun to hang out together away from the baby house.

Bible Study and Mary Kay

This week Thursday Margie was not able to come to Bible Study. She watched another missionary couple’s kids last minute. The rest of us went on with Bible Study but threw in an extra bit. We had vegetable soup with bread and brownies for dinner and then shared in the Word together. After that we indulged in a little Mary Kay party. Cassie’s sister sent us the supplies. We all did the facials complete with mask and ridiculous make-up. We also tried some different hand products. It was too funny but we had lots of fun laughing at each other. So if you happened to run across any weird pictures of us looking crazy on facebook that is what went down. I am really loving the community of volunteers here and it will be very hard to leave them. We have formed friendships that we pray can continue to cross oceans.

Bachelorette Party

This past Friday we went to Little Italy to celebrate Lisa’s upcoming wedding. Most of the volunteers have to work on the day of the wedding unfortunately so this was nice to be able to celebrate with her. It was us from Door of Hope, some ladies from her Bible Study, girls from another baby home and some of the ladies from Jason’s family there. It was a fun place to be as there was live music and great food. We did get to experience what it is like to eat out in South Africa with a big group of people. We got to the restaurant around 6:45pm. We did not order until around 7:15pm and our food to did come out to us until around 8:45pm. Talk about a long wait! We did not end up leaving until around 10:30pm. I said I am not sure that I have ever sat in a restaurant for that long before. It was a fun night and very chill because that is what Lisa wanted. We all just had to comment that it was so fun to be part of a wedding celebration while we are here in South Africa. Lisa and Jason get married on Thursday in a private ceremony for only family and then will celebrate with family and friends at a picnic reception. We wish them nothing but the best and many blessing on this new journey.

Vacation…Again!

I am heading out of the country in two weekends. We are going to Swaziland with Margie. It will be Cassie, Candice, Katy and I. We are super excited! The whole reason for the trip is that my passport was only stamped for 5 months when I got here and I did not notice that or know how to handle that when I got here. You are able to enter South Africa for 90 days without a visa. We are leaving and then going to reenter so that my passport can be re-stamped for 90 days. If I did not leave I would be in trouble at the airport and would probably be facing a big fine for being in the country illegally. Margie has made this trip before and has everything all planned out for us. We are going to visit a glass factory and an African market in Swaziland and then will drive through Kruger Park on the way home. Hopefully we will see some great animals! It will be nice that we can all get away for the same weekend and this will be the last big trip that we make together.

This and That

-       We found the toy that my girl S is afraid of this week. It is a plastic cow. It is brown and has horns. She is terrified of it and I am not sure why. I was calling her to come sit in her chair for lunch and this guy was in her way. She took one look at it and her eyes got huge, she screamed and ran to hide. Finally I did get her in her chair. We have showed it to her again and the reaction is the same. Well it is sad there is something that is a bit funny about the whole thing as well.
-       We played cards again this week. Phase 10 was the game of choice. I love this game and sometimes it can be hard to find people that want to play all the way through with you. I won. This means that every game I have played here I have won. The girls think that I am just so good at games and I said that I am just lucky with this crowd. Better quit while I am ahead I think.
-       We got a huge donation of baby food this week. Around 2700 jars! It was a grand total of two flavors the kids are going to be mighty sick of it pretty quick.
-       I have to wish Aubrey a big Happy Birthday! I am so thankful to count you as a friend. I pray that this year is filled with unexpected blessings and beauty. Love you girl.

This week I ran across a poem while I was reading blogs. It really stood out to me and was what I needed to hear. I am not sure what is next and continue to seek the Lord for what it is that I am suppose to be doing when I get home. I know that I am suppose to be in Holland but that is as far as it goes. I don’t like the whole waiting for answers thing, but I guess that I have not yet run into someone who does. This poem said it really well.

Wait
by Russell Kelfer

Desperately, helplessly, lovingly I cried
Quietly, patiently, lovingly He replied
I pleaded, and I wept for a clue to my fate
And the Master so gently said “Child, you must wait.”

“Wait? You say wait?” my indignant reply
Lord, I need answers, I need to know why
.Is your hand shortened? Or have you not heard?
By faith I have asked, and I’m claiming your Word.

My future, and all to which I can relate
Hangs in the balance, and you tell me ‘wait’?
I’m needing a ‘yes,’ a go-ahead sign,
Or even a ‘no’ to which I can resign.

“And Lord, you have promised that if we believe,
We need but to ask, and we shall receive.
And Lord, I’ve been asking, and this is my cry:
I’m weary of asking: I need a reply!"

Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate
As my Master replied once again, “You must wait.”
So I slumped in my chair; defeated and taut
And grumbled to God; “So, I’m waiting, for what?”

He seemed then to kneel and His eyes met with mine
And He tenderly said, “I could give you a sign.
I could shake the heavens, darken the sun,
Raise the dead, cause the mountains to run.

All you see I could give, and pleased you would be.
You would have what you want, but you wouldn’t know Me.
You’d not know the depth of My love for each saint;
You’d not know the power that I give to the faint.

You’d not learn to see through clouds of despair;
You’d not learn to trust, just by knowing I’m there.
You’d not know the joy of resting in Me,
When darkness and silence was all you could see.

You would never experience that fullness of love
As the peace of My Spirit descends like a dove
You would know that I give, and I save, for a start,
But you’d not know the depth of the beat of My heart.

The glow of my comfort late in the night;
The faith that I give when you walk without sight;
The depth that’s beyond getting just what you ask
From an infinite God who makes what you have last.

And you would never know, should your pain quickly flee,
What it means that ‘My grace is sufficient for thee.’
Yes, your dreams for that loved one o’ernight could come true,
But the loss! If you lost what I’m doing in you.

So be silent, my child, and in time you will see
That the greatest of these gifts is to get to know Me.
And though oft’ may My answers seem terribly late,
My most precious answer of all... is still... wait.

As I wait on the Lord I learn so much more about Him and have to rely on Him so much more. What a beautiful opportunity this is and something that should not be wished away. My new prayer is that I take joy in waiting in the Lord. He has everything planned and I need to let Him reveal plans on His time and not mine. Just a few thoughts from this week for you!

Love from Africa! (I still can’t believe that I get to say this sometimes!)
Emily